Ariana Grande Feels “Guilty” About Anxiety Disorder
Ariana Grande has had a rough year and a half. Still recovering from the shock of the Manchester bombing in May 2017, the pop icon has suffered the end of two high-profile relationships and is currently mourning the death of ex-boyfriend and musical genius Mac Miller by alleged drug overdose. Even intermingled with her briefly blissful relationship with Pete Davidson and the success of her tour-de-force album Sweetener, severe lows like these would be devastating to anyone. Still, Ari has admitted in a BBC Music interview set to air on Thursday that she “almost feel[s] guilty” about her anxiety.
“You have ups and downs and sometimes you’ll go weeks at a time where you will be crushing it and there will be no anxiety,” said Ariana, whose new single “breathin'” explores her battle with anxiety and Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. “Then something will happen that can trigger it and then you have a couple of down days, you know.”
Ariana said her feelings of shame come because she is the “luckiest, most blessed girl in the world,” noting how powerful anxiety can be and showing that anyone can be affected by mental health issues.
“The most important thing is to remember that … everybody has this,” said Ariana. “Talk to your loved ones, reach out to people, especially your friends online. Reach out to each other.”
This pre-recorded interview will be released three days after her return to performing following Mac’s death, triumphantly returning to the stage on NBC’s A Very Wicked Halloween: Celebrating 15 Years on Broadway special on Monday night. Ari has been a fan of Wicked since her childhood, and once told Seth McFarlane that her dream is to play Elphaba.
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Still, even happy occasions can be clouded by anxiety, and Ariana admitted on a now-deleted Instagram post that she almost let her anxiety ruin the recording for her after she missed the final dress rehearsal only hours before filming. Clearly, Ariana bounced back, captioning the photo: “Not today Satan! Not tomorrow or the next day either not no more u can suck my big green d— finna sing my heart out and be a big walking vessel of love bye.”
Ariana’s openness about her highs and lows dealing with mental illness is her way of being a role model to her fans.
“If I’m going to be a role model the last thing I should be is perfect, because that’s not realistic. That’s not a realistic goal for anybody to have,” said Ariana. “So, I think so long as I am honest and genuine and share with my fans my truest self then that’s the best I can do, because that’s allowing them to do the same thing.”
Tickets for Ari’s upcoming Sweetener World Tour go on presale this Thursday, and the songstress is currently working on her fifth studio album.