Billie Eilish Opens Up About Struggles With Body Dysmorphia & Self-Harm

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Billie Eilish Body Dysmorphia


Billie Eilish may be one of the hottest stars on the planet right now, but that doesn’t mean she hasn’t struggled with insecurities like the rest of us. The 17-year-old singer opened up about her issues with body dysmorphia in her early teenage years, saying that she “couldn’t look in the mirror at all.”

In a new interview to accompany her cover of Rolling Stone magazine, Billie revealed she first started to feel insecure about her body in a dance class at 12 years of age. Being in a class with a lot of “pretty girls,” Billie said she started to feel insecure and lose her confidence. “I wasn’t as confident. I couldn’t speak and just be normal. When I think about it or see pictures of me then, I was so not okay with who I was.”

The “Bad Guy” singer is known for wearing baggy, oversized clothing as her everyday “lewk,” which is why the “tiny clothes” she had to wear for dance made her feel really uncomfortable. “I’ve never felt comfortable in really tiny clothes,” she told Rolling Stone. “I was always worried about my appearance. That was the peak of my body dysmorphia. I couldn’t look in the mirror at all.”

When Billie had to quit dancing after rupturing her hip, she spiraled into a depression and began self-harming. “It sent me down a hole. I went through a whole self-harming phase — we don’t have to go into it. But the gist of it was, I felt like I deserved to be in pain.”

Although she said those early teenage years were the worst of her life, the 17-year-old discussed going to therapy and revealed she hasn’t felt depressed “in a minute.”

“All I can think of is how miserable I was. How completely distraught and confused. Thirteen to 16 was pretty rough,” she explained to the publication. “I haven’t been depressed in a minute, which is great,” she continued. “Seventeen has probably been the best year of my life. I’ve liked 17.”

The interview isn’t the first time Billie has spoken candidly about her experience with depression. Back in May, she released a video with Ad Council about mental health for their “Seize the Awkward” campaign. “It doesn’t make you weak to ask for help,” she said in the video. “And you should be able to ask anyone for help, everyone has to help someone if they need it.”

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