Demi Lovato Opens Up About “Falling Into” Her Eating Disorder With Workout Obsession
Demi Lovato is opening up about her past and current struggles with Ashley Graham. The “Anyone” singer appeared on Ashley’s Pretty Big Deal podcast where she talked about political correctness, her history with an eating disorder, and teased her new music.
“Social media in itself is a giant trigger,” Demi revealed. “I did learn that you can mute some people, which is good … I’ll admit I have a few friends who are just so insanely beautiful. I love them to death but even seeing my friends, I’ll be like, ‘Ugh, why don’t I look like that?'”
While Demi’s Tell Me You Love Me era was seen as her ‘recovery’ — she’d gone to rehab twice and had openly discussed battling an eating disorder and drug addiction. But it turns out that Demi’s ‘recovery’ era may not have been as empowering for the Sonny With A Chance actress as we had thought at the time. “I’m tired of running myself into the ground with workouts and extreme dieting. I thought the past few years was [sic] recovery from an eating disorder when it was actually was just completely falling into it.”
“I just realized that maybe my symptoms weren’t as obvious as before but it was definitely an eating issue,” she continued. “I think when you have certain people around you that are telling you certain things that you should look a certain way, it makes it harder. So, I was in that situation and I was just running myself into the ground and I honestly think that’s just what led to everything happening over the past year. It was just like, me thinking I found recovery when I didn’t and then living this kind of lie and trying to tell the world I was happy with myself when I really wasn’t.”
She talked about her working out obsession where she would go to the gym six days a week, sometimes three times a day. At her worst, she’d spend the whole day at the gym and just take breaks to eat before getting back into her routine. But now, she’s over that phase. “I’m not willing to destroy my mental health to look a certain way,” she said. “[Before] could tell you down to the ounces what I weighed without a scale.”
“When I was growing up, all I had were really, really, really thin starlets that had that… There’s a word that I’m trying really hard not to use. But it’s like blank-chic look,” she said — likely referring to the term “cocaine-chic.” “It’s just a not-healthy physique that was being praised in the fashion industry.”
The connections between Ashley and Demi made for one of the most genuine interviews we’ve heard from the Disney star. Hopefully, it’s the first of many as she keeps releasing new music.