It’s been a rough few weeks for former BacheloretteHannah Brown. After her quest to find love on television crumbled (she ended her engagement to musician Jed Wyatt during the show’s finale), she’s now back to reality. And turns out, her reality isn’t all roses.
In a heartfelt Instagram post, Hannah revealed that she’s “struggling” with how “different” her post-Bachelorette life is.
“Since last August, I’ve been a pageant queen, a bachelor contestant, and the Bachelorette,” she wrote alongside a photo of herself gazing into the distance. “I’ve been in love with multiple people, I got engaged, I broke off an engagement, and I shared it all with millions of people. My faith has been questioned by thousands who don’t know my heart, and my transparency with my decisions has labeled me promiscuous.”
“I miss my friends and family who have watched my life explode,” she continued. “I feel guilty because I don’t have the time or emotional capacity to fill each of them in on my life right now. I can’t keep up with the people who matter most, because I can barely keep up with my own life right now.”
The 24-year-old went on to reveal that this new life of press interviews and opportunities in the lime light is “uncharted territory” for her, and something that she needs to adjust to.
“I’m human and it’s okay to be overwhelmed,” she wrote. “And maybe, I just needed to remind you guys too. Life is beautiful, but wild. I think it’s okay to be strong-to know you’re strong-but to still feel weak simultaneously. I believe that’s when the magic happens.”
Hannah may also be overwhelmed with how her love life has turned out. After her televised proposal went south, she attempted to rekindle a relationship with her Bachelorette runner-up Tyler Cameron. The two met for a drink and even spent the night together, but it doesn’t look like the hunky model is willing to commit to a serious relationship. In fact, he was spotted out in New York City with supermodel Gigi Hadid several times recently, proving that Hannah isn’t the only woman in his life.
“I have feelings, but I’m also single and he’s single and I wanna keep my options open and he can keep his options open,” she told Entertainment Tonight. “I’m working on Hannah and loving Hannah.”