Little Mix’s Jesy Nelson Reveals She Attempted Suicide Over Cyberbullying
Here’s another reminder that words can have dire effects. Little Mix star Jesy Nelson revealed she attempted suicide because of the cyberbullying she experienced during and after her stint on The X Factor UK. If you’re a huge Little Mix stan (and why wouldn’t you be?), you’ll know that the girl band rose to fame after heir 2011 stint on The X Factor, which they actually won — making history as the first group to win the iconic show (Sorry, One Direction). While the girls participated in the competition, Jesy was a victim of serious cyberbullying where trolls constantly referred to her as “the fat one” in the group.
In an interview with The Guardian, the singer has opened up about the influx of hate she received while on the show and discussed how detrimental it was to her mental health. In the interview, she recalled a performance she and the girls did of Nicki Minaj’s song “Superbass,” and how afterward, they all sat around and watched the performance on YouTube backstage.
“I was very naive,” she told The Guardian. “I thought it would be people giving their opinion on our performance. But nearly every comment was about the way I looked: ‘She’s a fat ugly rat’; ‘How has she got in this girl group?’; ‘How is the fat one in this?'”
Jesy then became obsessed with reading what people said about her. “I had a routine of waking up, going on Twitter, searching for the worst things I could about myself. I’d type in the search bar: ‘Jesy fat,’ or ‘Jesy ugly,’ and see what would come up,” she said. “Sometimes I didn’t even need to do that, I’d just write ‘Jesy’ and then I’d see all the horrible things. Everyone told me to ignore it — but it was like an addiction.” Just hours after it was announced that Little Mix won the show, Jesy received a Facebook message that read, “You are the ugliest thing I’ve seen in my life, you do not deserve to be in this girl band. You deserve to die.”
In a new documentary with BBC Three titled Jesy Nelson: Odd One Out, the singer further discusses her mental health issues associated with the growth of Little Mix. According to the BBC, Jesy began losing weight and returned to The X Factor in 2013 with Little Mix as guest acts. She hoped the bullying would stop, but it didn’t and she became “severely depressed.”
In the documentary, the 28-year-old discusses attempting suicide over incessant bullying. According to the BBC, she said, “The only way I can describe the pain is like constantly being heartbroken. I remember going to the kitchen and I just took as many tablets as I could. Then my ex, who was with me at the time, he woke up and was like, ‘Why are you crying?’ I kept saying, ‘I just want to die.'”
Thankfully, she was left with no complications following the attempt. The BBC documentary will debut on September 12th and is designed to hopefully help others who are going through a similar situation as Jesy.